So we won't be in Pennsylvania after all. I just learned that that position was given to someone else. I was offered a position in Chestertown, Maryland. Middle of nowhere, Maryland. Anyone know anything about it?
As I lamented to Brad about this change, he had a good thought for me. I was telling him that I was sad about how I had let myself get my heart set on PA, that I had started dreaming about things in PA, how I had started counting on PA... And Brad said, this is like when you grab for the gumball in the narrow-mouth jar. You put your hand in, but you can't pull out your fist until you let go.
Yeah, it's only when you let go and turn everything upside down that things come.
Profound, no? I think I married a wise man.
So things are upside down tonight. But it's ok. I can let go. Thank GOD I have learned to trust and let go, and I continue to do so. Now I need to just be ok in uncertainty: no planning, no dreaming, no Option A and Option B, just sit in the not-knowing and wait. Maybe hum a tune, or pick a daisy, and just sit.
Sweet dreams, loved ones.
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