"You are not very happy with this situation..." Duh.

Thanks to Jessica Jones, I just took this Colorgenics test. It takes about 30 seconds. Try it. It was pretty accurate for me. Jess is one of the many people at Evanston Vineyard who I wish I had had the opportunity to be friends with. Brad and I would always say to ourselves as we left each Sunday, "We are so rich. There isn't time enough to get to know all the amazing people here." And now that we're gone, I so wish I hadn't been teaching, that life circumstances had been different so that I could have made time to be friends with such people. Jess's blog is incredible and inspiring. You'll enjoy her quirky and fun sense of style and her fresh approach to decorating. Target curtains + fabric paint = one of a kind window dressings. Novel. Why didn't I think of that?

Anyway, here are my results from the "test":

"You are striving to make favourable impressions all of the time and you are going out of your way to make the impression that you are something special. You are constantly on the watch to see how your friends and neighbours are reacting to your various ploys. But this is so unnecessary because most of the time you are in control of the situation - and you are, in the nicest sense of the word, a 'manipulator' because you use various strategies very cleverly in order to influence and obtain the necessary recognition. (I like being called clever. And as much as I don't like being told I'm an attention seeker, sometimes I am. I like being different in a good way. But 'ploys'? Eh.)

Being a somewhat gentle, emotional and sensitive person, you are at this time experiencing a considerable amount of tension. What you really need is someone who can be close to you and to listen to what you have to say. (Um, ding ding ding. Thank you GOD, for my husband, mother, and sister who hear it all!)

In spite of all the opposition, you are insisting that your goals are realistic but circumstances are forcing you to compromise. You are not very happy with this situation but there is little that you can do about it. You have very strict standards which you try to apply to everyone who enters your sphere of influence. (Yep. I assume the best in people, and often demand the best of people, whether or not they care to give their best.)

The tension that you are experiencing at this time is perhaps due to physical and/or mental frustration. It would appear that you are not appreciated and as a consequence, the situation is most disagreeable. You seek personal recognition and the appreciation of others to compensate for the lack of like minded people with whom to ally yourself. You would like to surrender and merge with others but your inherent self-restraint makes it difficult for you to open up. This disturbs you as you regard such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome. You want to be liked, admired and appreciated for yourself. (SO true. I liked being a teacher, where my skills were used and recognized. Sitting in this boring closet doesn't scratch that itch. But at least I have time to take colorgenics tests.)

You need to be respected as an exceptional individual. This is the only way that you can hope to achieve the status that you wish to achieve. You set yourself very high standards - and come what may - you abide by them." (True. I tend to only do things that I know I will excel at. And then I excel. Not necessarily a good thing as it means I don't take lots of risks. Eh.)

Last night was another quiet, relaxing evening at home. Brad and I made Chef Boyardee pizza from a box and watched the award-winning epic tale, Dodgeball. Ben Stiller always plays a moron. I also talked to my sister who was on her way to try a new housegroup. Unfortunately, she was pushing herself too hard (why do we do that?) as she was experiencing side effects of her new medication. Her joints started to ache earlier in the day, and by the time she left for housegroup she couldn't unlock the door for herself. What that girl will do for community. I convinced her to turn around and go home to take care of herself. At 4 this morning she woke up and her tongue was swelling, a sure sign of an allergic reaction. So roommate-of-the-year Becca took her to the emergency room where they are right now. She's had an IV of Benadryl and steroids and hopefully will be feeling better soon. The sad thing is that she was to give a presentation at her school's inservice today which she worked really hard on... poor sister can't get a break. If you think of it, please pray for her today. She could use a boost in health and morale-- these steroids do a number on moodiness and it's really frustrating to her.

Tonight we'll try a new steak place with Dad to celebrate his passing of drivers' school last night. (Word to the wise: don't speed in Fort Lauderdale when driving back to Orlando from the Superbowl.) We're going to try Bonefish Grill, which is a chain but most things here are. Tomorrow we have a quiet night planned of Chili's for dinner and then watching Stranger Than Fiction with Will Ferrell. I netflixed it this weekend so it will arrive today. Anyone seen it? I also netflixed Nowhere in Africa-- it won a bunch of awards and the reviews mention superb scenery and cinematography. Hopefully we can watch it with Mom and relive the Africa adventure a bit. Mom comes in Friday night for a week of seafood eating. And some visiting between seafood restaurants. :)